||If someone does it right yes sex can be painful at first but it should stop if it's making you cry.
For sometimes being dirty and not having the best hygiene i actually kept a cleaner room and house with roommates then when i lived alone.
||For me it was part not seeing it as being worth it i had low self esteem and was simply lazy things have changed for me where i have gotten sick of being the way i was.
||here for a check up but i think ill get my cock out while im waiting...
||Some struggles i do see is getting past some barriers that have to do with culture and upbringing that unfortunately are affected by race.
||hell yeah but wtf position were you in lol
||you said "just thinking about it disgusts me" does any part of you maybe even subconscious think about it during these current acts?
||I dunno but i just feel that white ladies for the most part are sexually and physically boring
||no one should feel forced too that is unhealthy i really hope you can figure this out and move on but i think your taking the right steps by talking about it and trying to do something.
||Dump these losers and pick up a guy who is comfortable moving at your speed and working with you to get you off i dunno just thoughts
||It may be that you can't be in a relationship until you move past the first experience i'm sorry for what happened to you no on deserves that.
||It sounds like you had a very unfortunate and unfair first experience that you may need to get consoling to help you through.